Anxiety. I don’t know many people these days who don’t suffer from it. Some seem to hide it better than others, but almost every person I come in contact with tells me they struggle with anxiety on some level. Why is it in today’s modern society so many of us share this struggle? With the rise of anxiety, more and more people are on antidepressants to help manage the problem, myself included. Yes, me too! It’s something I hid for many reasons. I felt as a yogi, I shouldn’t have this problem. And that if I admitted I needed help outside of yoga and meditation, something was wrong with me, that I wasn’t being authentic. Inadvertently, hiding it just made me more inauthentic.
It all started about 10 years ago… or at least that is when I became aware of it. When I realized that this feeling I had inside of me needed some serious attention. Several people had suggested yoga. I figured it couldn’t hurt, so I gave it a try. At first I felt nothing. But over time, after a class, I started to feel more relaxed and bit less anxious. However, the anxious feeling was still constantly there in the background. The more yoga I did, the more I wanted to learn more about it. Why it felt so good? What was the magic behind it? So, after 3 years of practicing, I decided to enroll in teacher training. Not even sure if I wanted to teach, but I wanted to learn more about this mysterious practice. After completing my first 200 hour TT, I felt as if I had gotten just a small taste of what yoga is about, so shortly after I decided to attend Level 1 with Baron Baptiste. I heard his program will change your life. At the time I was searching for a big change, a transformation. Level 1 was an amazing journey inside. I learned so much about myself and my negative self talk, and began to realize the importance of adding a daily meditation practice to my life. I still meditate most days. Although my anxiety is better than it was back then, it still lingers.
I have been on and off of anti-anxiety medication for many years. It has helped, but it also has side effects. And while yoga has played a large role in my anxiety management, I was craving more natural options to help me in my struggle. So I began to seek alternative methods to cope.
A few months ago, I began to hear about this ‘magic’ oil (CBD) that helps with anxiety and many other ailments. It had my full attention.I started reading about CBD and all of its benefits. It seemed to good to be true. The only way to know if it really could be a substitute for pharmaceuticals was to test it myself. I felt a subtle difference at first. Like any supplement, it takes time to work, to build up in your system, to find the right dosing. Over time, I have become calmer, more focused, and I sleep better. Yes, I said it… sleep better. Anyone who knows me knows I have struggled with this for as long as I can remember. I am a big believer in the power of sleep. A good night’s sleep can determine the direction of my day.
I believe in yoga and meditation. I believe that both have helped me change my default way of being--which is negative--to a more positive attitude. Yoga has given me heightened awareness into my thinking and being, and through it I continue to learn more about myself and how I handle my life. Yoga and mediation are not just necessary but are crucial in my well being. However, I also believe in genetics. I come from a long line of individuals that struggle with anxiety and depression. I also believe feeding the body healthy foods--including lots of vegetables, fruits, lean proteins, and healthy fats--help to maintain stability both body and mind. Probiotics for healthy digestion… and for me CBD oil for anxiety.
These elements together help keep me sane. I firmly believe they work together to keep me balanced and feeling my best. If you are curious about any of these topics: yoga, meditation, nutrition, or CBD oil, please reach out. I would love to share my experiences and knowledge with you. Everyone deserves to feel their best, to lead a happy peaceful life.