The first of the 12 laws of transformation is “Seek the Truth”. This weeks classes have been focused around this first law. What does it mean in reference to transformation? It is my understanding the process of seeking the truth involves the process of self acceptance and self-love. So the question often asked, how do we do this? How do we transform to this place?
For me this was a very slow process, that has taken place over many years.
I believe the process begins with mindfulness. In yoga asana we develop mindfulness around the physical body and the breath. In meditation we are invited to develop awareness around our thoughts. To begin to observe our thoughts without engaging in them, without judgement. For many of us this is a difficult challenge. To witness without engagement or judgement. This takes lots of practice and patience.
If you take 10 minutes each day to sit, breath, and observe your thoughts, I believe you are providing yourself with the opportunity for self-inquiry to begin to dive deeper into the process of seeking the truth.
What does your inner voice say? Have you sat down to listen? I have. For a long time, mine was harsh, and non-forgiving. She was at times down right mean! She would tell me for many years I was fat, ugly, not smart, the overall theme was “not good enough’. Everything I did was incorrect, wrong, “not good enough”. This way of thinking became my default. A default that left me feeling less than. A thinking that created a lack of self-confidence, and high level of anxiety. Then a teacher of mine said, would you talk to your best friend the way you speak to yourself?
At first I was stumped. Talk to myself. I don’t talk to myself. But then he went on to speak more about getting quiet and listening to the voices in your head. Curious, so I did. I began to sit, in silence and listen. This was the start of an awakening for me. Oh my gosh, she is awful. How could I be so unaware. I began to become more and more aware of the voices in my head, and did not like what they had to say. So now what do I do? I seeked out self-help books, meditation books, anything that would have the answer. Almost everything I came across said all you need is the awareness, and from that you will change. I couldn’t believe this. But over time I have learned to a degree it is true. From this awareness I was able to begin to change my way of thinking. When my inner voice was and still is being unkind, instead of believing her, I am able to acknowledge her and then reframe my thinking.
Through the process of self-inquiry I have learned to rewrite my story about myself. Develop a new truth. From this new truth, I have created a confident self-loving person. A person that is proud of who she is and not afraid to be challenged or face her fears. I believe this process begins with getting still. Listen to what your inner voice is saying. And then question it. If you are unsure if it is true, seek help to get clear, Discover if your story is serving you. If it’s not, it’s never too late to create a new one. I believe we are each on this earth for a reason, and it is not be small. It is to be big, to shine our light, and in order to to do this we must first accept and love ourselves for who we are and who we are not. Perfectly imperfect.